Almost 12 weeks!

And the nausea and puking continues...daily! I'm posting here for the record that I don't want to be pregnant again! This has not been a fun experience thus far. Everyone says that I will "change my mind later and forget about how miserable I feel." I actually succeeded one day this week so far (it's Saturday) when I did not throw up. I thought I was going to make it through Friday too, but then I threw up everything I ate for dinner!

Tonight, one of my closest friends (from HS) is getting married and Chris and I are heading to the wedding. I'm 11 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I'm super worried that I will feel miserably sick and won't have fun! Needless to say, I'm DD for the night since Chris can have alcohol and I can't. It will be a night of water and kiddie cocktails for me! I'm hoping that I will feel up to having at least a bit of fun! Granted, it's going to be a mini high-school reunion! YAY! ...maybe... There are definitely going to be friends that I haven't seen in several years that I'm super excited to see!

Our ultrasound and first prenatal appointment is September 24, 2009 (Thursday) . I'm super excited and very nervous because I'm worried that there is nothing there. Last week, I got worried that we would go to the doctor, have the ultrasound, and there would be no baby. ...I had to take another pregnancy test. I'm still pregnant! There is a lady who had posted in my online due date club on Mothering.com that she went in for an ultrasound at 12 weeks and the baby had died approximately 2 weeks prior and didn't discharge itself. HOW SAD!!!!! Therefore, I just have a lot of anxiety about the ultrasound.

My emotions are all over the place and I feel really bad for Chris. Wednesday, I was a complete bear, ALL DAY LONG! I shouldn't have even left the house. Everything and everyone was making me very angry. I guess this is all the pregnancy hormones?

Another week and a few days to go before I'm in the second trimester. I can not imagine that I will ever feel up for eating or that I may have an appetite. I hate that my stomach is controlling my life and everything I eat. I've lost about 4 lbs since I got pregnant because I have been so sick. It's definitely not a great thing! I try to eat as healthy as I can, but it's hard when there are only so many things you can stomach. :)

So, I posted the first tummy picture at 10 weeks and 2 days...I'll post another one soon, but it's growing. Last night, Chris said, "Look at your tummy!" It's definitely bigger at night when I'm super bloated. :) I'll try to figure out if I can post an ultrasound picture when we get it next week!